5w3d

I'm still here!  Which isn't unusual for the last few pregnancies I've had.  Next week will be the real test.  Though for the last 3 days I've had some tan spotting.  I have no idea what that means.  But it's caused some dreams of miscarriage.  One of the few times that I'm happy to wake up.  I'll write more later, gotta run to work now.


OK I'm back for a blip, taking a break from a full day class at work on project management. I'm so tired its embarrassing. I know the instructor can see that I'm practically falling asleep. I did so well choosing my lunch strategically so that I wouldn't fall asleep, but then I succumbed to the lure of a scrumptious piece of cake. Even though I ate less than half, it was enough to get the blood sugar surging and then crashing back down over the last hour. Soooo sleepy. Or is it the cold?? Or is it the pregnancy?? I am having a hard time deciphering some of my symptoms because of this cold. Good news on the cold, I was told I can take Robitussin DM, Benadryl, Claritin or Zyrtec. So I feel a little better.

I forgot to post that I made my ultrasound appointment for 7w4d, on March 27. It's still over 2 weeks away. I am wondering if I'll make it there. The last miscarriage started on 7w0d.   It's so hard to wait, but I don't have a choice.  The difference between this pregnancy and the last 3 is that my boobs are supersore this time around.  I think with one of them they were a little sore, then they weren't sore, then I miscarried.  With the other two they were never sore, I didn't really feel pregnant.  So the sore, sore boobs and the twinging ovaries/uterus feelings are a comfort this time around. 

I read someone else's blog yesterday and she was talking about staying positive.  I'm attempting that....  for example I'm not doing betas this time. I would have if the doctors told me to, but when I made the appointment they didn't mention it.  I didn't need a blood test since I knew I was pregnant thanks to 2 home pregnancy tests, so I decided not to ask for beta checks either in an effort to have less to worry about.  I've not had good luck with betas. 

It's very easy to doubt, as the only paths I've been down have led to disappointment.  But the thing is, I don't think it's impossible for me to have a healthy pregnancy and baby.  I think it is possible.  I am an older mom, but I bet I still have some good eggs left.  We stopped with the fertility clinic, I stopped charting, I stopped using ovulation testing kits.  Yet I'm pregnant.  This can happen. 

4w6d and stuffy

Today is a beautiful day in Sacramento.  The sun is shining and birds are chirping, my dogs are resting in patches of sunshine on the floor.  The weather's been very March-like, lioning and lambing all in one week.  70 degrees and sunny one day, 36 degrees and storming the next night.  Annoyingly and predictably, this has led me to catch a cold, which started 3 days ago, walloped me on Wednesday, eased up enough yesterday that I went to work, and then came raging back at me last night and this morning.  

Colds are always horrid, but when you're pregnant they're even worse because there's not much you can take for it.  When I catch colds, I usually covet a couple packs of Dayquil/Nyquil or AlkaSelzer plus Cold, as I've found they erase my symptoms delightfully.  But they are a no-no when you are PG.  So I've just been suffering and hoping it goes away ASAP.  I am wondering if perhaps it's my body's way of forcing me to take it easy right now, or if it's just what happens in March.   Fortunately the prenatal vitamins I've been taking for the last 4 years have kept a lot of colds at bay.  If anyone knows for sure that there is some sort of safe cold-symptom erasers for a pregnant person to take, please let me know in the comments area.